Dear friends of everywhere 🙏 💞 in all of us is blood. Through of patriarchal and matriarch inherited vein, runs and flows out blood. What do we do when there is a "health system" that doesn't provide us with the right help for our breath to pump life. Everlasting healthy improving light within us all. Light in our blood. What do you bleed , sweat work and cry silent tears for ? Is it your health? I live in California and I have severe back pain but it's a very mysterious back pain. The doctors I've gone to don't know what it may be my MRI scans came back fairly on the more normal " nothing to see here" side. So I've been struggling with my physical body for about five years now since I noticed the initial back pain. It is sharp it's chronic and it's something I didn't at first usually like telling people I had. Now It seems to be the first thing I blurt out so people know I struggle/suffer with this spine shoulder back problem. It doesn't help that in the area where I live there is not much help for homeless , yes where I'm located is riddled peppered with ' mental health $ervices' I don't know but the welfare over here seems to only sit on their pretty salary paid behinds and not really take care of the indeed desperate or sick as in physical infirmities only (not talking about mental anymore it only serves to give me a physical head ache) . Back to my back problems and (yes currently employed part time yet currently homeless) I got evicted and financially I cannot as a single 28 year old adult female afford to financially take care of costs for therapeutic torso back problems (because insurance, mine at least) won't cover back massages if deemed unnecessary or I guess they see it as a vanity ? Thing ?) I don't know but I would describe my back problem pain level to far exceed a ten easily. I'm in constant physical pain. I've paid before under the table to See what it could be they told me I had 12 inflamed some kinda bones in my spine . Yet the " real doctors of California" failed to detect anything odd in my spinal column MRI and other tests. I've gone to physical therapy which was the only service provided ( mind you I have a very physically active/demanding job ..... especially with me having five years of this weird painful back pain and limitations on my what feels bruised shoulders.... The last thing I need/needed is to not know where (as a female) am going to sleep. It is very overwhelming and annoying and then maybe , just maybe that's when any type of mental health services are needed ) ....but I won't get into that pool of topic subject. What I'm asking for as literally one of my last options has been turning into fundraising , I am an optimistic soul and was hoping since the time I got evicted to help others and honestly I just can't at the position I'm in currently in life ..... I need financial help because I feel I. Drowning in the redundant craziness that is falling into a pool ( you didn't want to fall into) cough cough category. Over and over again til it gets gorey ..... I feel I'm taking on a huge inner ailment when solely speaking of mental health services in California because they seem to seep into any nook and anything ....only to / for purposes of unknown...seems like they just want everyone sedated and traumatically inflicted by a lot of factors .. a lot goes on in California yet seems no help. I wanted to start a nonprofit showering center and make it about boosting the confidence in our homeless society but seems they want us to be bums with no showers ( if you don't have family support ) -_- don't understand how the Gavin Newsom governed piece of lannnn...I don't know....is running it's waters of it seems water isn't being treated with spirituality of this is everlasting and infinitely given as abundant. No. What I feel I see and sense is that us, we the blood of California get treated like milking cattle but with governor's fangs 🙀 yes vampires. Just turning us in to sunkin in zombies. If our wallets are empty we are easier to mangle around and control. What's mysteriously happening with my back and what's mysteriously happening on these California streets could be pure hmmm a lot of things. But I feel it's a system that doesn't help , I do want help. I don't want that cliche sentence being tossed at me or " those who don't want to be helped can't be helped " -_- obvio.....us, so US can you please help . I'm asking for funds from donations to help me get massages or for herbal teas any kinda of vitamins I could buy that insurance won't provide. Help me see from a different point of view with a more balanced secure wallet perhaps .... I've tried different options but I come back from a shift fourth day in a row and I'm tired and in back pain when I get a phone call from my doctor clinic saying they couldn't provide me with a doctor's note to assist the " welfare 0ffice" about a much more informed from their angle of what my back issues are .....nope. the welfare has been keeping me exhausted with me exercising my patience under some very untranquil times in my life. I'm desperate , I need financial assistance to help me have a better health less physical pain and mental Anguish. I don't like being homeless but what can I do. Besides work a part time which I'm already doing.... It's very difficult right now . I'm sorry if you think this is a waste of writing for me it's my current life events. My cash tag is $babySapphire47 and my www.paypal.me/dhaliaGroot is available.....I'm hoping finally I could get help that's not just redundant references handed to you/me each and every repetitive gag worthy time. I need financial help to pay for my back pain expenses . I have no support whatsoever other than my dad and uncle, but they can't help financially unfortunately.... Thank you for your time 🙏 💧 www.paypal.me/dhaliaGroot I'd truly appreciate any type of donation.