Have you ever thought that your more was never enough? Christmas and holidays where spent on a very tight budget and birthdays were hard so you had to promise if money was saved a present would be bought... eventually. Can't work because you suffer from seizures from birth and up so the only money coming in or out was welfare and sometimes the father of your kids decided to pay his child support. I sit and look at all I had promised I'd give to my two and even though they are encredibly patient. They never not once complained. Reassuring me...ME that everything will be ok. I pray to God I find a way to make one at least one of their wishes come true. To have a home. To have a room of their own. To have real nice beds and fun things...yes any fun things. I just recently paid off a ps4 that suddenly broke down. I was so happy to buy them something that they liked. They never complained having to play board games or cards. Something I wanted growing up so I gave this small old fun to them but I wasn't stupid. They never complained mind you so maybe it was my own guilt plaguing my thoughts. I love my wonderful kids. If you ever met them you would too. They say there prayers and always God bless anyone who helps them when we have nothing. I pray for this. I pray for a new start. Thank you for hearing my story.