I'm completely lost.... I've worked very hard my entire life, and never thought that I would be explaining this on a website like this. The short and too the point is, I'm 46, and diagnosed with late stages PAH , a rare form of heart disease that restricts my breathing terribly. It's terminal and I imagine I have less than a year if I cannot get meds. I lost insurance when I could no longer work due to the physical restrictions I face. (Imagine walking across a parking lot with a plastic bag pulled tightly around your head) Well.... Now I'm about a week from homelessness, I cannot afford even the basic necessities or food. I have no insurance and by the time my Medicare or disability comes through I will most definitely be dead.i have been trying to put my once wonderful life back together , but fear I'm cursed. I was wrongly thrown from my house a couple years ago, and had my identity stolen at the same time. I've been living in the back room of a friends trailer trying to get myself back on track. I haven't paid bills now for 2 months and the stress and depression have taken strong roots into my life now. I haven't even told my daughter about what is certain to come in the next few months.i really don't want to die, and I hate asking for help more than anything. I'm lost more than I could ever put into words . Maybe this will help maybe nobody will ever read it, (i still try to have pride in myself) and it's embarrassing. I need insurance now, and I need a way to pay on my hospital bills as well as general living expenses. If I don't get it, I'm going to die a lot sooner than later. Believe me when I say I do not feel sorry for myself, and I'm lucky to live as long as I have, but I do not want my daughter to see her father go out as a complete loser.