My name is Louis and I have been living my true life for five years. I'm transgender and can now live my life as the person I am inside. I'm also disabled and my problems start with the fact that I'm on Medicaid and they will not pay for surgeries or hormones anymore. I'm devastated. I can't go back to living the way I was. I've spent the last five years as the man I am and they're telling me they won't pay for the medical things I need to be me and that keep me sane. Before I transitioned I hated myself and my body so much that I self harmed, cutting and burning myself, and I will live with those scars for the rest of my life. Those scars are both physical and mental. Now I'm completely devastated and feel so depressed all over again. I'm desperate to stay the man I was always ment to be and to have the surgeries to help with my body dismorphia. I hate parts of me that Medicaid won't help me remove and I need my testosterone and can't afford either. I'm also trying to legally change my name and birth certificate to male, but thats hard to do and expensive. My birth certificate is from Florida and they are pretty antitrans. I want so bad to be able to live my true life, but living on disability and having to have Medicaid for my medicaI needs is making that almost impossible. I need help desperately and mentally I'm sinking further and further down. Please help me, I don't know what else to do. Anything will help, anything at all.