I will do my best to make this short as I know that time is not on anyone's side these days. I have been married to a man whom I thought was the most amazing man ever, for 22 years. We have two beautiful, smart and talented children in college.  

6 years ago I stopped drinking completely. Ever since then, my husband has changed. Or maybe I finally am seeing his true colors. Nevertheless, he has narcissistic traits, he's verbally abusive calls me every name you can possibly think of, tells me I'm pathetic, I'm ugly, he calls in sick to work at least once a week while I'm working overtime trying to make ends meet, he pays no bills except his and my sons cell phone bill. I know and believe that every person is responsible for their own happiness. However, I live in one of the most expensive states and I cannot afford to get a place on my own. And he knows it. We currently live in his late grandmothers house rent free.  

I have applied for several jobs that pay more than my current job, I have a ton of experience, but no one will hire me. ( assuming it's my age ). 

My husband is also a diabetic, whom chooses not to take care of himself. About every 6 months it gets so bad that he has to be taken off of work. ( For something that could've been controlled). Then I find myself falling even further in debt, and he sits back like a victim. Playing the “oh poor me” pity party game. I know this sounds so cruel, but when I get up at 3 am and catch him eating things that he shouldn't be eating, it infuriates me. 

I started my own business that was off to a great start on Etsy, and he managed to ruin that. I've enrolled in classes but then always finds a reason that I can't go. I feel like a prisoner. I've applied for section 8 but that takes years. 

I am physically and mentally exhausted.  

I literally have $19 to last until next Wednesday. I have no family that can help me and zero food in my house to feed my son who is home from college for winter break. My clothes have holes in them, as well as my sons. 

I just need some help to get out of this situation. 

I appreciate anyone who took the time to read this. If you are able to make any type of donation, I am so very grateful for you. More than I can put into words. I literally have my head hung in shame. I cannot believe that this is the life that I have provided for my children. It doesn't matter if they are older they still need things and I can't buy them anything. And their father could care less. 

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