At the risk of sounding pitiful, here is my situation:

I lost my disability benefits which have been my only source of income for over ten years due to the social security administration deeming my condition improved (bipolar 1) and since losing my income in September 2023 of $1090 monthly I have attempted (with short-lived success) several jobs as a cashier, custodian and personal assistant due to my ongoing health issues exacerbated by my loss of income and prior financial obligations (which I managed previously quite well when I still got disability and proudly I should add and to the benefit of my credit score). My lost health insurance and lost access to affordable medicine for my condition has coupled with the symptoms of depression and untreated bipolar disorder unalleviated consistently by necessary medications as well as the stress and feelings of insecurity and inferiority from being in several abusive and narcissistic long term relationships (I am now single and happier than I’ve been in years so I am going to remain so) that brings me to my next part of my situation: I have somehow ended up with no less than four cats who are healthy and very spoiled but it’s only because I have a big heart for rescues and I dare say my parents whom I live with are not thrilled about the increased amount and cost of food and kitty litter and I am barely ever able to take them to the vet for shots or medication. Tiny my oldest has kidney disease but her quality of life seems to be there and she isn’t in pain so I try to make the best of her remaining time on earth with frequent treats of Sheba and when feeding her I end up giving Sheba to my other young lady Penelope who has gotten pregnant by accident cuz I didn’t have the money to have her spayed until too late and we had adopted Petey (my mamas cat) who has since been fixed but not before he managed to find alone time with Penelope (about 15 months old). I found Penelope crying in the woods at my boss’s residence and could not resist when I picked her up and she started to cuddle and purr immediately and then Petey was another rescue my friend pee-wee handed me through my truck window saying he would not eat so I took him home and gave him a bottle for a week and then mama fell for him too and since her cat lily- Belle had just lost her sister of 15 years she decided she needed a boy too.. my two other boys are Tigger (3 years old) and Moustachio (2 years) are like brothers and best friends both neutered and all our pets are indoors only, although the two oldest boys do go outside to the garage to kill lizards or get some sun. I adopted them from my ex boyfriend who was a terrible liar and became very irresponsible towards the end of our relationship, abusing my trust and moving away from town with no arrangements made for bringing his cats with him but this ended up being my joy because I have adopted then to their forever home. Tigger brought Moustachio home carrying him in his mouth like a mama cat and so my ex went from one cat to two to none when he moved and threatened to take them away and drop them somewhere I told him over my dead body… the boys are the best thing to come of that three year fake love relationship and I’m so in love with all my babies I cannot fathom life without them as I never had children for fear they would be born bipolar like me.. it’s not an easy thing to explain but I do have a chemical imbalance in my brain and it at times makes me very anxious, agitated, depressed, impulsive and even reckless in my youth. I guess it’s because I have shown some improvement in managing my condition over the last few years that I lost my benefits but I disagree with the decision being it is so challenging to rejoin the workforce at almost 50 having had a great career I gave up some 15 years ago and I didn’t want to but having a nervous breakdown under some extreme circumstances it became a matter of life or death and I chose life and to fine home to South Georgia and assist my mother as she underwent surgery several times for various conditions as well as spent time working on auctions selling Avon and making art with mama which we tried to sell but not with much success … regret is something I know alot about because my job at the state botanical garden of Georgia part of the University of Georgia’s dept of public service and outreach was so wonderful yet I let my own personal problems cause me to offend dangerous people in town and make so that I had to buy a gun and hide out give my two weeks notice and then come home to the safety of my folks three hours south of Athens … I’m looking for someone to care about my story and my pets as you can see I bit off more than I can chew sometimes having a hard time doing all the daily pet chores scooping four litter boxes and feeding and watering and spending quality time with my pets as well as going to my part time job assisting my elderly boss with his own business as an owner of some 17 rental properties, cleaning and yard work also trying to fit in time for my craft art which is really original and organic as I learned floral design and upcycling objects into art from my talented mother who is also my best friend.. I have a degree in horticulture from UGA however I need time and some financial breathing room to update my resume after ten years of being on disability per my doctor’s recommendation and if I could just get a little help from a kind hearted fellow Christian or any religion it would allow me to breath and not fear the present and future of my situation and for my furry family… my stepdad and mama whom I live with are in pretty good health but I know that this is temporary and I have big things to do I just need someone to believe in me and my ability to overcome as I always have in the past. I’ve been down many times before and hit bottom and now I’m actually getting by because of the love and mercy of my parents and friends and my Lord Father God but I figured why not try to see if the wonderful world of the internet has anything to offer someone like me: a big hearted empathetic pet and animal loving friend to many and helper of the underprivileged and misunderstood- I give so much to my friends and to pet and people charities like Salvation Army and there is no reason for me anymore to live with regret or shame for my situation… Jesus was poor as well and he said the poor in spirit shall inherit the earth so please have a heart and help me to have time to live a life where I can work part time, provide for my fuzzy children and get them flea medicine and doctor appointments, save something for my future and pay off my credit card bills and title pawn and few personal debts I owe … probable no more than 20k total would be enough to sustain me long enough to update and perfect my resume, work on sales for my business both online and in person and not feel the pressure of the wolf always standing at the door . If someone will take a chance on me I will be a great investment as I’ve already proven that I can make lemons into lemonade and keep smiling and creating and loving and possibly even healing others in the process… thanks for reading my bipolar (manic depressive) shpeel - this is the unedited version which I may need to edit for real and make it more coherent but it is hard to get it all out and not forget anything I could literally write a book or two and that is in my arsenal as well as on my bucket list too!!! Please support your local artists and businesses and spay and neuter your pets! As bob barker always used to say - the pet population is growing beyond our means and don’t worry Penelope will be fixed as soon as she weens the kittens but I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a little glad about it cuz they will be such cute little kittens and her disposition as well as Peter’s personality are so very laid back sweet and hilarious to watch …Thank you in advance and God be with you and yours I truly appreciate any gift large or small they are all Great! Peace ✌️ ps. Forgive my lack of correct punctuation and grammar I don’t use Ai to write - this is straight from the horses mouth and any questions please feel free to ask!