Hi, my name is Emily, I am a 54-year-old widow who suddenly lost my husband last year... I came home to pick him up for work and found him dead from a ruptured aorta on my bathroom floor ( I now suffer from PTSD) it's a battle the flashbacks as I use my shower, I am also a 2-time breast cancer survivor who had to have a double mastectomy, chemo & radiation you name it .. Praise God I am ok I turned that negative and focused on work. I am a Realtor who was doing good at one time. Ever since my husband passed I lost all I had. I'm working so hard to catch up. Unfortunately, I'm broken and broke and trying to make it happen. I am the caretaker of my 3-year-old grandson while my daughter finishes nursing school she is working as well. I have 2 young adult kids one in College and the other working to help me. I recently took in 2 sisters who lost their home and are now homeless although I am going through the worst time ever. Financially hurting. I can't help but have compassion I can't let my 68-year-old sister sleep in the car with 2 knee replacements.. I NEVER expect anyone to give me a handout. I am normally the one who is always always helping. Ever since my business tanked I have fallen deep into a financial rut. I have Sold my car and now borrow my kid's cars to go to work when I am called for work. The market is crazy with rates. I have hustled and keep fighting the good fight, But I am honestly just so tired and cannot catch up... I can't even get a loan right now. All I need is help to breathe PLEASE. I need a foundation so that I can work towards my goals again. I trust My God so much, I know he brought me through the darkness of the death of my husband and breast cancer not once but twice... I'm not trying to give up... I sincerely need help and pray someone cares to help me. I am willing to pay it back I am in tears as I type and feel embarrassed. I just need someone to hear me and my story... I am trying I'm so tired that I can't sleep just thinking. I have an interview for a job. Even though I have been self-employed for 17 years. I'm willing to change up to better my thoughts and finances. I am not lazy and want to work, I do have some work but not paying yet. I am so stressed with not knowing whats next..GOD BLESS YOU for reading this .. sorry it is not perfectly punctuated I'm mentally drained and can't see with all these tears.